Old Habits
A few weeks back, I took the decision to start a business. In particular, a web design business. You can get more context about this decision from reading here and here.
But I noticed that initial feeling of being pumped to start something new has faded, as it usually does. I am now left with actual work to do. I need to get my website up and running so I have a presence. And more importantly, I need to do some projects to build up my portfolio.
The issue I am facing is one of "I can't be bothered". In the evenings, I should be beavering away to get my site up. But instead, I find something to procrastinate on. Old habits are proving very difficult to break.
I'm going to try a tactic that has worked in the past. Set myself a finite task every evening to do. And If I complete it, I can close the laptop. At least I will be taking a concrete step in the direction I want.
At the moment, I have the bulk of my landing page designed and built, I just need to add in a navbar and an FAQs section. Once that is done, I need to work on making everything responsive, then I'm officially open for business.
I mentioned in one of the earlier pieces that when I decided to start this business, I had a visceral feeling of dread. And my theory was that, internally I knew that I had the skills to start right now, and I couldn't bullshit myself into thinking I needed to spend time learning more. The "I can't be bothered" attitude that I've been feeling the last few weeks I think is just some way of my mind trying to protect me from putting myself out there. If I do so, and people think my work is bad, they might judge me. Being bad at things is something I have always hated. But the thing is, I can't get better if I don't do.
Anyway, I'll report back.
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